Just another day.....

There is no different channel

There is no end

Had another bloody sensory overload day.

Our Social Security checks came in so we had to go to Wal-mart to cash them and do some shopping. I've learned enough by now to know when I go out anywhere I must take my MP3 player along with me as it blocks out the other sounds and I'm half way able to deal with being out of the house at all.  

Cue screaming children, loud pallets being moved around, people talking loudly, being in the way so I couldn't get through with the free rental motor-cart. The only way I can shop because of my crumbling spine.  We spent too much but are still alright financially for the remainder of the month.

We were able to all this done earlier than normal, which was nice. We got home at an earlier time and I was able to get all the major monthly payments out of the way. (YAY me)

Then comes evening.  Starting at about 8pm it started to happen. Fireworks. First one neighbor, then another....then another  and another..... and more.     HELLO SENSORY OVERLOAD. Extra Xanax time.

I was two headsets in on my player. (regular ear buds and a none connected pair that go over the ear. Double sound proofing.. 

Still heard them because one of the neighbors is right next door. Our windows in the living room and my bedroom face the side and backyard of their house. Everything was literally right outside our window.

And I'll probably have to deal with this again tomorrow.   

This is kind of how my brain feels (like it looks) Sights (sudden bright flashing lights) Sounds (loud explosions) smells (gun powder) feelings ( reverberations from the explosions, and the shaking physically from being scared witless.) and it's all mixed up and fuzzy in my brain (small pinkish circle in the middle of all that)  *I wish I could have drawn it better this doesn't do the feelings justice to how I feel.*

But I did work on my self esteem at some time during my day. While shopping I bought my first tube of mascara and eyeliner that I've bought in over 10 years. *big sigh*  And my son is a major MLP:FiM fandom, and he got a couple of items today including some little color hair clips. I claimed the blue one for me.  

(note I seem to have a theme.... blue earbuds and cords, blue rimmed glasses and blue play hair strip) 

Now I'm gonna try to sleep, but I doubt that'll happen. Usually when I've a over stressed day I stay wide awake until I literally  drop over from exhaustion in the wee hours of the morning. Thankfully I can use that time as a creative outlet for my writing. I'm working on my own novel instead of just writing fanfictions..

Just glad the day is over.