People always say you have to love yourself.
I just can't.
I'm grossed out by the weight I am. I just want to take a sharp knife and cut all the fat off.
I hate that my blood pressure is so high., I hate that my cholesterol is so high, I hate that I'm in so much fucking pain all day, every day.
I hate how I look, I hate how I feel, I hate me, I really hate me.
So how the hell am I supposed to love myself. I'd be so much better off dead.
I can't love myself. There's nothing good about me at all.
No one can love me. Everyone just leaves.... or runs away.
Kill me now.
