Visual image of bi-polar

To me this is what bi-polar feels like.

1. The dark side represents the depression: It's dark and everything is muted in color and tone. Things don't seem quite right. It's not completely dark, there are little bright spots but they're muted and dull. There's no real fulfillment from anything.  There's a dark cloud that covers everything. It's dark, scary and always hidden. I hide my depression from the outside world with a smile or a joke. It has to be hard to read me when I'm like this. I don't want to show that face to the world.
2. The bright colored side is the mania: It's bright and busy. Sometimes overwhelming and noisy. Things and feelings are all over the place. It's messy and wild. My nerves feel all strung out and over stimulated. The mania is good for when you want to get things done. It's chaos. It's insane. It's cleaning spree and twitchy skin over twitchy nerves. Everything twitches and buzzes. I don't like to go out when I'm in this mode because it can lead to reckless behavior. It wants to spend, it wants to scream and hit things. I hide when it happens.

To me this is what bi-polar feels like it's dull and chaotic at the same time. Two sides of the same coin. Always off balance. Even with medication the balance always is in flux. Bi-polar is a strange beast that lives in my head.