I'm just worthless right now.

I feel it starting. I don't even know the reason behind it but I feel it. I'm wanting to withdraw from everything.  For the most part I don't want to talk to anyone. I'm sitting on needles, all tensed up and ready to spring. One little noise, one more thing goes wrong I'm gonna break. I don't even know why I'm writing this here. I don't expect anyone to be able to help me. I go though is more frequently than I can count. I go beyond the SPD/Aspie norm of withdrawing from society. I just shut down. I want to shut down. I want all my pain to stop. I want my brain to shut up I want to sleep. I don't want to be responsible anymore. *sigh* I don't know. I won't do anything and I don't mean to scare anyone. I just needed to write this down.