things have gotten weird.
my son is diagnosed with depression, possibly bipolar, and anger issues. he's now displaying signs of an alter. No harm yet. all because his older cousin raped him repeatedly when we lived at moms for the first time.
the alter is kind of scary. his voice and persona change... get darker and deeper.
he's also hearing voices. in particular his bitch of an aunt. she tells him to do things and he's not strong enough to resist. i'm working on that one bu telling him i'm stronger than her. so far it seems to bring him out of the hold she has on him.
he's also told me that he feels like he should be a girl and wants to be a girl. i'm supportive of whatever he wants to do. but i can't help but feel a small bit of grief.
this is all worrisome thing.
on the good side. he's gotten a job with hope network.. he's enjoying the work and people, and he really likes the paychecks. it gets him out of the house for a few days, giving me a bit of a break.
my health has gotten worse. i have a walker now because my legs aren't working the way they should.. i no longer need to go to the hematologist and the renal specialist.
life has taken a few weird turns.
"im shattered: does it matter?"
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