Old

When did I get so freaking old???
1. When I was younger I was the one driving around with my music full blast in my car. Now I feel like the little old lady; standing on her porch, shaking cane in clenched fist yelling “Turn that fucking music down, asshole.”
2. I could generally eat what I wanted even though I gained weight. Now I can only eat select food and I still gain weight, and ill to my stomach.
3. Music didn't suck like most of today's music.
4. Things were simple, more innocent. Now there's almost no shame.
5. Things just cost a lot less; I'd kill for yesterday's prices today.
6. Other than the whole life long depression, I can now add cranky, creaky old lady with baggy skin and a spine that's literally tearing it's self apart.
7. I could drink and never get a hang over. Now I can't even take a sip because of all the stupid medications I'm on.
8. I had energy and could stay awake.  I could really drain some child for the energy level just like a vampire.
9. I was kinda gothy when I was in school.[didn't have a name for it then]: Now I'm an awesome elder goth... how cool is that.
10. Went to fun concerts and amusement parks when I was younger. Now I can barely leave the house without a panic attack.
11. I used to be hell on wheels; driving fast, even entering the ¼ mile race track [lost by half a car length]  Now I get crippling panic attacks that could have very well manifested into an attack in the middle of the highway causing all kind of trouble. I quit driving, one thing I used to love. It was freedom, a way to get away from what was going on in my life.
12. Dreams of moving somewhere exciting, Now worrying about having to move into a nursing facility.
Getting older sucks. Being old is the worst thing ever. There is a difference strangely.
My great-grandfather used to say; “It's okay to get older, just don't get old.”

And remember..... “Don't sweat the petty things; and don't pet the sweaty things”   “Of all the things I lost I miss my mind the most.” “It's all mind over matter: If you don't mind, it don't matter.”